Heaving the blessed-happy sigh ... =)

Seated on the floor in your room right ...
Feeling so 'xing(4) fu(2)' to have you by my side ...

=)

After sending you girls to Parkway Parade, I drove to East Coast Park by myself ...
while on the way there, I could feel myself being sensitive and drawn close to God once again ... felt so loved ... felt so grateful towards a Love that was so great in magnitude and so deep in depth that no man could possibly understand. =) Tears began to flow freely down my cheeks when I thought of the love Jesus has for me. :')

At this moment, I recall a very familiar dialogue that is commonly shared amongst many Christians about Jesus's love for us ...

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There was once a man who had an internal struggle; he finds it really hard to accept the fact that God could love a man like him unconditionally. He fell asleep one night and had a dream ... In the dream, he met the Lord. Immediately, he seized this opportunity to clarify his struggle with Jesus.
With doubt in his eyes, he looked at the Lord and asked, "Lord, do you love me?"
Jesus smiled and replied, "Yes. I love you."
The man shot his immediate question, "But how much do you love me, Lord?"
"This much?" The man asked as he gestured with his hands in an open manner.
Jesus shook his head and answered, "No, my child. I love you more than this."
A smile appeared and broke the doubtful look on the man's face.
"Lord, could it be this much?" The man asked as he widened his hands.
Jesus shook his head gently. With an assuring smile on His face, He answered "No, my child. I love you more than this."
The man's face began to beam with delight.
"Wow! I know You love me, Lord. But I didn't know that You love me so much. It must probably be the donations that I've been giving faithfully for so many years to charity ... Or it could be because of the many times I've visited the church near my place ... Or it could be because of the many god deeds that I have done. I must tell my friends how much I mean to You, Lord!" The man started to boast.
"Tell me, Lord. How much then exactly do You love me?" The man asked proudly.
Jesus heaved a sigh, with a tinge of brokenness in the tone of His voice, answered, "Even when I saw the times you told the lies you felt you needed in order to earn that promotion, I have loved you ...
Even when I saw the revengeful thoughts you harbored towards your ex-girlfriend when she left you, I have loved you ...
Even while you were in your mother's womb, I have loved you.
How much do I love you?
I love you this much ..."
At an instant, the scene changed. The man found himself standing before the cross on that dark, gloomy and fateful day.
"I love you this much ..." These words echoed in his ears.
The man looked up and saw the Lord bruised, bloodied and broken ...
"I love you this much ..." The Lord, with His arms fully stretched open ... slowly opened the palm of His Hands, bearing the marks left by the rusty nails that were hammered mercilessly into them and into the old rugged cross ... and He died.
At this moment, the man woke up with tears in his eyes, saying "Thank you, Lord. Now I understand. Now, I understand."

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I'm truly grateful, baby.
Thank you for helping me get back with my Redeemer.
Hugz.
There are so many, many things that I can thank you for, baby .. for giving me a chance to love you .... for loving me the way you do ... for allowing me to call you "baby" ... for calling me your "Baby'.
Hugz.
But among the many things that I could thank you for, the most important thing is to thank you for leading me back to Jesus. How can I thank you enough, baby? Thank you.

I love you, baby.

I love you so dearly ... so dearly. =)